How much I miss speaking to you, How much I wish I can go to one of your family parties and you being there. and we always catch up to were we left off. How much fun we always had, I always Thank God he gave me another chance to be with you when you were at the hospital with my sister, Alex, Monica and your Dad, how much fun we had remembering all the good times we had growing up, God gave you so much stregth that day, I guess he wanted it to be our last Good-Bye. I know your always with me evertime I call out for you, I'm so convinced! Especially yesturday at Jalen's Baseball game. The game was for the playoffs. At first Jalen's team were making alot of errors the other team made 7 runs in the first inninng, Jalen's team were not hitting the ball it was awful, then on the 4th inninng, Do you remember when I asked you? " Please help these kids" and all of a sudden all the kids started hitting the ball, making only doubles and triples on the top of the 5th inninng, then on the 6th inning they made 2 more runs. Jalen's team won the game. They made it to the playoffs........
Thank you for always being there for me,
Love you, Susan
Gone is such a strong word / Jackie Dolce
Gone is such a strong word not meaning good or bad, But just to put your name and gone together makes me feel so sad. I feel like I need you, You never shed a tear. Now I live without you my friend, Which gives me so much fear. You were my friend I am proud to say, Then I remember when you went I cried there while you lay. Now your gone forever, My friend who I Love. Now your in a better place, High, High, above. You were put through so much, Cancer is so cruel. Yes if I had just one wish, It would be you back as are always were. ACTING THE FOOL!!!!
It's been over 6 months since that terrible day, when I learned the angels had come, to take you away. It doesn't make sense, will we ever know why? Why, someone so young, had to die. I often wonder, I ask God all the time why did you take this friend of mine? She had so much to live for, always happy showing a smile God why couldn't she have stayed for a longer while? The answer I get is filled with love, For it comes to me, from our lord above. He says" Susan I took her hand on that November morning As we walked together, through the garden of light. she was surrounded by love, she was not alone there were family & friends there, to welcome her home. I know your pain, and see your tears, But, I only lent her to you for thirty years. Please don't be sad, your friend is near, she is safe in heaven, she has no fear. The angels did come, to lead her way and I know you would've liked just one more day But everything has a reason, and I have my plan Believe in me and trust me , if you can. I must go now, I have more to do, The day will come, and you will join us too."
Missing You / Monica Crespo (sister)
Hey Ness - Today is one of those days, when I miss you more than ever. Yesterday even though there was a room full of people all I kept looking for was you. It made me miss you so much, it reminded me just how messed up life really is. How things can change from one day to another. All the memories of you. How many times did we make each other laugh? My God, we did not have one day together without laughing about one thing or another. Our many rides home together, you don't have any idea how much I miss that. We solved every problem in the world in that short time, by the time we got to Alicia's house to pick up the girls our problems were solved or at least the baseline was created (lol). I found this poem and I thought of you, I wish that you can feel the hugs and kisses I'm sending you right now.
You never said I'm leaving You never said goodbye You were gone before I knew it And only God knew why.
A million times I needed you A million times I've cried, If love alone could have saved you You never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly In death I love you still, In my heart you hold a place That no one could ever fill.
It broke my heart to lose you But you didn't go alone For a part of me went with you The day God took you home. Close
Thinking of You / Monica Crespo (Sister)
Hey Sis - As I was watching the finale of American Idol today all I could think of was you. How at last year's finale, we did as we always did when we followed a show together and discussed our opinions of what just happened during the commercials. I remembered how the song that Fantasia won with made me cry because it was so appropiate with what was going on with our lives. "Believe" I think was the name of it, and it said every emotion that I had in my heart. How I believed everything was going to be OK, how I believed that you would be healthy and with us for years to come. But God had other plans and while I still don't understand I believe that you are still with us in God's embrace looking after us and helping us on our road to meet you in heaven. This year the song that was sung was appropiate for me. They sang a song that had this phrase " I want to be in your heaven", how true, how I wish I can see you one more time, just to know that you're ok. How miss you. There is not one day that I don't miss you, how I long to pick up the phone and call you to give you the latest, how I miss our Saturdays of shopping and just hanging out. I miss my crying shoulder, my conscience, my very best friend. I love you mucho mucho. ps - Could you believe, I'm sure you're smiling right about now. This is what we always talked about and it's happening. Close
Why you / Ashley Crespo (God kid ) Tia I still wonder why, why you, I wish you where here with me. There is a part of me missing and no one can see to fill it except for you, and I can't wait till I see you again so that empty hole in my heart is filled up again. I'll see you soon. I love you soooo much. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoClose
*ANGELS OF FRIENDSHIP. BEAUTIFUL SHARED MOMENT TOGETHER. DISTANT HEART YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN, THERE FOR EACH OTHER IN OUR LIFE. YOU ARE MY GUARDIAN ANGEL WITH PRETTY SNOW WHITE WINGS WITH FLOWERS IN YOUR HAIR AND ON YOUR DRESS. ANGELS FRIEND. TRUE FRIENDS ALWAYS STICK TOGETHER, AND COVERS EACH OTHER BACK. FRIENDSHIPS MEANING OF LOVING EACH OTHER IN THROUGH GOOD AND BAD TIME TOGETHER. SPECIAL MOMENT WE SHARE TOGETHER WHEN WE GO TO BEACH ON HOT DAY* OUR FRIENDSHIP IS SPECIAL PLACE IN EACH OTHER HEART ALWAYS AND FOREVER. OURS FRIENDSHIP IS SPECIAL BECAUSE, WE ENJOY EACH OTHER TIME TOGETHER COUNTS* WHERE’S MIND AND SOUL ARE THINKING OF EACH OTHER , EVERYDAY. I AM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU MY SWEET ANGELS FRIEND. YOU' MADE ME HAPPY THROUGH THE YEARS I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU, MY SWEET ANGEL FRIEND YOU'RE FOREVER’S LIVED IN MY HEART AND SOUL, PLUS MY MIND EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE ON THIS HEAVENLY EARTH, MY SWEET ANGEL FRIEND, VANESSA HERRERA I CAN FEEL YOURS GUARDIAN ANGEL SPIRIT TALKING TO ME AS WRITE THIS POEM FOR YOU MY LOVED FRIEND I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU. TILL WE MEET ONE DAY HEAVEN. MY DEAR GOD IN HEAVENLY LAND WILL WATCH OVER YOU'VE FOR ME. THROUGH CHRIST JESUS. PLEASE KEEP ON PRAYING FOR OUR LOSS SOUL. WHO WENT TO BE WITH HEAVENLY ANGELS IN HEAVEN. MY FRIEND IN THE WORLD. NOT TO TALK TO ANYMORE MY SWEET FRIEND REST IN PEACE WITH ANGEL OF HEAVEN.
Your Smile / Kerrie (Friend)
Hey Ness, I saw your smile today on a little girl at the park. All I could think was how wonderful to see someone with that bright beautiful smile that you had, that could light up a room. I think of you often and I know that God sends us all pieces of you to hold on to. I was a lucky one to have seen your smile again. I only hope that the little girl grows up to be half of the wonderful, beautiful person that you were and will always be in my heart. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Love, Kerrie Close
He's with us even now / Monica Crespo (Sister)Read >>
He's with us even now / Monica Crespo (Sister)
Sometimes we wonder, "What did I do to deserve this", or "Why did God have to do this to me". Here is a wonderful explanation!
A daughter is telling her Mother how everything is going wrong, she's failing algebra, her boyfriend broke up with her and her best friend is moving away.
Meanwhile, her Mother is baking a cake and asks her daughter if she would like a snack, and the daughter says, "Absolutely Mom, I love your cake." "Here, have some cooking oil," her Mother offers. "Yuck" says her daughter. "How about a couple raw eggs?" "Gross, Mom!" "Would you like some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?" "Mom, those are all yucky!" To which the mother replies: "Yes, all those things seem bad all by themselves. But when they are put together in the right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake!
God works the same way. Many times we wonder why He would let us go through such bad and difficult times. But God knows that when He puts these things all in His order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him and, eventually, they will all make something wonderful! Vanessa’s legacy has and is continually making a difference to so many she would never have been able to touch otherwise.
God is crazy about you. He sends you flowers every spring and a sunrise every morning. Whenever you want to talk, He'll listen. He gave Vanessa a fantastic Mom and Dad, two great siblings, such loving daughters, a terrific family, and so many cherished friends. All that was given to Vanessa to make her something wonderful and that she was! For all those memories that bring such pain today will surely, in time, be your greatest treasure and joy. To her family and devoted friends, enjoy every day, value every moment.....Vanessa would want it that way!
Happy Easter in Heaven / Andrea Herrera (Daughter - 4 yrs old )Read >>
Happy Easter in Heaven / Andrea Herrera (Daughter - 4 yrs old )
Mami, I wish you were here with me, if you were here with me I would do everything you say. I love you so much and miss you so much more. I wish that you have a good Easter with Jesus and God. I want to tell you that I am in school and that I have made many friends there. I wish that I could see you. Happy Easter Mami - I love you sooooooooooooooooooooo much and miss you everyday!! Close
From an Angel on high a tender message of love was softly whispered into the ear of this humble scribe.........
Weep not for me now that I have passed. Remember the laughter, the affection, the joy not just the recent tears. Cherish the memories, our hopes and dreams. Hold fast to the love that we shared. Be happy with the time we spent together and being anew. For I am not really gone, I am closer than ever before. As the morning sun rises and throughout the busy day..... I am with you. Until the setting sun disappears on the horizon and we watch the day turn into night...... I am here. You may feel a faint breeze stir round your head while you slumber as I gently kiss your forehed, " Good night". The stars that shine so brightly in my heavenly sky help me watch over you and keep you from harm. I am the wind in the trees and the song of a bird. I am moonbeams in a midnight sky and a glorious rainbow after the storm. I am morning dew and freshly- fallen snow. I am a butterfly flying overhead and a puppy happily at play. I am a smile on a stranger's face a gentle touch a warm embrace. Listen to the wind for my message of love Watch the sun rise and set in the sky with me. Feel my essence encircle you with warm memories. Open your heart to know......I am not gone. Reach deep into your soul...... You will find me.
I remember you so dearly and sometimes I sit and talk to you and hope that you can hear what I am saying. I miss you and the pain of you not being here anymore makes me sad. I know that as we got older we drifted a little apart but no matter how far apart we were you were always my favorite cousin. How could I forget all those wonderful and fun times that we shared. I think alot of those times and I remember them in my pictures of us. I remember when we were younger and we playing around and messed up your mom's bedroom furniture. That stain on her bureau was there for so long. We were so scared that we were going to get in trouble that day. Do you remember all the sleep overs? How we would have to beg my mom to let me sleep over your house, your dad always let come sleep over mines. We use to have so much fun staying up late talking. Do you remember the Kayla Dance? There are so many memories that I have in my heart that sometimes its hard to believe that I won't be seeing you at our next family reunion. I miss you and it hurts in my heart. You were so special to me, I just wish that I would have told you just how much. Love you.
Another Day / Monica Crespo (Sister)
I'm sitting here as I often do in front of my computer listening to the songs and looking at your pictures. As I did on 11/12/2004, I miss you so much. Vanessa, there is not one day that I do not miss you, not one day that I don't think of you. How I wish that I could see you one more time, that we could have our famous talks just one more time. I wish that I could let you know just how much you mean to me in my life - then and now. If I could have that one more time, I would tell you how special a sister and friend you are, when I see other sisters and the way they act with each other, I wish I could let them know how special our relationship is and that they should have it the same. How much they are missing out on. There are so many things that I want to talk to you about, how I miss that. You were always there for me and my nutty stories. They say that time heals, but I don't believe that. Time has not taken the pain I feel of not having you here with us, it just makes me miss you more. I ask WHY and there are no answers, nothing that makes sense. Just one wish - one more day - one more day to say I love you, to give you one more hug, a chance to hear your voice, your laughter, see your smile, a chance to just be with you one more day. I love you! Close
Thinking of you / Jenni Sanchez (Sister-in-law)Read >>
Thinking of you / Jenni Sanchez (Sister-in-law)
Vanessa as you know your nephew was born on 2/3/05 and he is beautiful. I miss you and think of you often, even more so now that Matthew is here. How I wish he could have met you and had the opportunity to have you in his life as I did. I know you would have been a great aunt, I also know that you are always with him, taking care of him from heaven. I promise you that even though he did not physically get to meet you, I will make sure that he knows how wonderful you were. I speak to him about you and show him your beautiful picture that is in our living room. Hopefully, my sister your wish will come true and he will look like your brother and you. How I would love to look at him and always be reminded of you. I love you dearly, you are always in my heart.
Still Not Here / Ashley Crespo (Niece)
I have wrote many stories about you, and have heard many stories about you. But at the end of it all, you're still were not here so we can see you happy and smiling again. Close
As read from her prayer card - Safely Home / Amanda Herrera (Daughter)Read >>
As read from her prayer card - Safely Home / Amanda Herrera (Daughter)
I am home in Heaven, dear ones: Oh, so happy and so bright! There is perfect joy and beauty in this everlasting light. All the pain and grief is over Every restless tossing passed. I am now at peace forever, Safely home in Heaven at last. Did you ever wonder I so calmly trod the valley of the shade? Oh! But Jesus' love illumined every dark and fearful glade. There is work still waiting for you, so you must not idly stand. Do it now, while life remaineth - You shall rest in Jesus land. When that work is all completed. He will gently call you Home. Oh the rapture of that meeting, Oh the joy to see you come! Close
No One Will Ever Know..... / Monica Crespo (Sister)Read >>
No One Will Ever Know..... / Monica Crespo (Sister)
Many a lonely moment Often a silent tear But always a beautiful memory Of one who was so dear
Their memory is our keepsake From which we shall never part God has them in his keeping We have them in our hearts
Friends may think we have forgotten When at times they see us smile Little do they know the heartache That our smile hides all the while
We mourn for them in silence No one can see us weep But many tears are shed While others are asleep
God gave us strength to fight it And courage to bear the blow But what it means to lose them.... NO ONE WILL EVER KNOW